Waking Moments

I don't know about you - but in the morning, my mind wakes first - before I open my eyes or even start to get out of bed. Sounds weird, I know. In that waking moment, my mind becomes alert - and it is then, in that quiet stillness - that I most often hear God speak to me. Not every morning, but usually when He needs to get my attention about something. This morning, in that waking moment, God said, "It's not about you." Immediately, other thoughts rushed in, and I thought, "I have to get up and write all of this down, or I won't remember!" So, I did. I recently posted about this very same topic, It's not about me. This morning, God reminded me of a recent evening, when I was wallowing in my feelings. I was NOT thinking scriptural truths - but simply letting my feelings and those destructive voices that come from the enemy, fill my mind. I began to think I cannot do the things God has called me to do. In a very short time, I realized - these thoughts are not from the Holy Spirit! I began to speak the Word to my heart and soul. While I stopped wallowing, the insecurity of it all has stayed with me somewhat. In my waking moment, God showed me that every time I speak truth - I will almost immediately be confronted with living this truth in reality, in my life. It's like a living object lesson. It's easy to say it's not about me - it's another thing to keep my mind fixed on Christ and filled with the truth of the Word. I believe God will always allow me to be confronted, to be tried - to be proven genuine, or not. With His simple reminder, "it's not about you," God reminded me I am to walk by faith, believing what He says - not by my feelings. Faith vs Feelings - that is the choice I must consciously make day in and day out, and all the time in between! Feelings make it all about me. God's Word makes it all about Him. I feel like a slow learner. Next time, I pray I will immediately stop those feelings and thoughts, before I can think on them one second! Oh yes, I am sure there will be another battle. "Lord, never stop proving me, refining me - until I am a genuine reflection of Jesus Christ."